Fluid Cement Mountains * Whirling Dervish (Def. – Urban Dictionary):

  • A person whose behavior resembles a rapid, spinning object. These actions are often spastic fidgeting and incessant babbling. The actions of the whirling dervish are irritating and annoying, often exhausting other people in the immediate vicinity.
  • The phrase is derived from these 2 words:
    Whirling: moving or driven rapidly in a rotary or twisting motion.
    Dervish: 1. a member of an order noted for devotional exercises involving bodily movements.
    2. a Rocking Demon who eats souls.
  • Examples:
    1. that woman must have taken her son’s Ritalin. She is behaving like a whirling dervish.
    2. Is she talking to us, to herself or has she just become a whirling dervish?


As I started practicing whirling dance on my own, I was fascinated by many different things which touched and taught me deeply. First of all, the bruises on my arms and legs showed me how important it is to handle with my physical balance. And to have a bigger space.. So intuitively, I focused on a fixed point (like my hand or the top of my fingers) in the beginning. Slowly, I was then able to spin many minutes long without pausing. Then life really gave me the possibility to practice in wider spaces and I was spinning nearly everyday at that time. Today I can spin like crazy at the same point where I started without hitting against the walls and furnitures around and realize it’s not the dimension of the room which is determining, it’s all about how you let your feet and mind flow.

Whirling dance is an essential part of my lifestyle now. It is my meditation. A prayer. My gateway to the God within..

I have learned, seen, heard and felt so many things while whirling. One of the amazing things, which I still really enjoy is surely the physical and visionary sight. In the beginning, you’re hugging, holding (to) yourself and preparing for a warm-up by slowly moving towards one direction.

And here we go! The physical world I knew so far.. becomes now fluid.
(NOTE: fluid (Def. – Wikipedia)  In physics, a fluid is a substance that continually deforms (flows) under an applied shear stress.)

You still recognize and can categorize things but everything around is like in a constant flow as long as you spin. I liked this from the beginning on; that’s why I couldn’t see the fact that this can be quite disturbing for many people, so that they feel dizzy and sick (some of them are frightened by the sight alone).

Well, I experimented with this a bit! By getting faster and faster, I realized there are no shapes anymore, but only lines of colour and light. This is actually the point where you know: ‘ok, you got a bit too high; now come down slowly..’ Please take a look at my photography works as a result of my experiments and try-outs. I tried to show how the world appears while dancing by holding and moving the my camera with me.

Raise your head to the sky and you will fly like a free bird.
Fall your head down and the shapes become clear again.
Fix your sight to your skirt, and you will open thousand doors within.
Now go through these doors; one by one.
You will start crying out of thankfulness like it would never end again.
Or perhaps the gravity pulls you down, and you crawl out of suffering like you could never stand up again.
And if you close your eyes, a whole enchanted world is waiting for you behind those eyelids. In the depths of an undiscovered soul..

You spin.
The outer world spins around you.
You spin around your inner-self.
And everything else turns around you.
You are nothing and all at the same time.
You feel huge and small in the same flow.
Free and trapped.
Important and meaningless. Strong and powerless.
Insights.. and despite…

So far I could observe, non of these opposite feelings came at the same moment but in the same flow with different insights. And once they came, they were incredibly intense and overwhelming. Whirling moments are probably the most intimate moments I’ve ever experienced.

At a sudden, you’re uncovered and feel solely naked. So naked.. so naked you want to run away yet don’t want to stop!

In contrast to the spinning movement of the Earth, the dervish creates so a simulated world for him- or herself, where he/she can observe things nearer and clearer. Guess what; whirling taught me to let go and to be on a constant flow.

Yesterday, I attended to a lecture of the visionary artists Alex & Allyson Grey in Vienna, where they told about Entheogeneration. One sentence went through the depths of my perception, which I think fits very well to my context: “Discover the God within.”
Being that near to That is the farthest point I could reach till now.
I know..
“I intend to end up there”.
But that’s another story..

And now stop spinning and listen.. do you feel the flow continuing in your core?



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